I live in a neighborhood where gang tagging is like decoration and littering is okay I guess? Where the train passes and make all that noise. Bums get mad because you can't spare a dollar, teenage moms standing at the bus stop with a baby on one hip and a over sized baby bag hanging from the other arm,police up and down up and down the damn streets but never caught the killer of that 7 year old baby girl but, their so worried about a brother or sister who is barely making ends meet and give him a fix it ticket for a broke light he tried to fix but the money didn't add up right. Or how about the crack heads walking up and down the street prostituting so they can intoxicate themselves with that mess. Maybe the 9 year old big little sister walking home her 6 and 4 year old younger siblings because her mom have two jobs,go to school part time and their daddy, he don't exist to them. How about my next door neighbor hanging out with his friends on his birthday in front of his house and he got shoot in his knee? The liquor store on the corner got burnt down I asked the owner what happened he said, "I'm so fed up with this s*^!",I stay where your own black people snickering and whispering about you when you walk in the nail shop, Yeah I live there were all these things and more take place but what I can say is I'm grateful for my guardian angels protecting and watching over me with all their might. I'm grateful for ever breath I take,every morning I wake up. Every night I pray that my neighborhood change so my son,nieces and nephews can play after the street lights come on.
Even though it may seem as if I portrayed my neighborhood in all negative ways it is all still reality. I may have described a neighborhood of your own. Rather or not what I've just stated is many reasons why our youths are leading down the wrong road. How could you wake up every morning and walk to that bus stop or corner store visualizing the images I just painted and think happy thoughts? How should or young men feel when they can't walk down one of the Avenues without getting harassed? All the cons out weighed the pros and that's why the negative things stood out. But I been in my neighborhood for 16 years so I guess I got use to the gang tagging,the shooting, police sirens going off at all times of day and night, and having to watch your back. Like Tupac said, "I guess Somethings will never CHANGE". |
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
My H00d
my first day
Sunday, September 21, 2008
So I guess I'm just sitting back waiting my turn for my mister right! With open arms, a high head and a heart ready. First, I know I must get myself together for success before I do anything else. My education is important but, Myself and my feelings are also very important to me. So I will let those good things come to me as I patiently wait.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
little miss lucky
Everyone says that Life is short and don't take it for granted. I must admit I never really took that saying seriously.Life indeed is very important to me. Succeeding is nothing but a option. Some choices I made wasn't always wise. At times I seen myself going down the wrong road. I was living the fast life with people I would describe as a major problem to our society. At that point I was just another lost 17 year old GIRL in the hood with no responsibility, no worries and no self-respect. Certainly I knew all the unspeakable things I engaged myself into would eventually catch up to me. At that point of my life I was living for tomorrow and not necessarily my future. This was all to obvious I knew this was definitely a wake up call. God had a different purpose he wasn't ready for me to be with him just yet. I appreciate life more than I ever have. With these eternal scares I can't never forget what I've been through,how it affected me and my loved ones.LIFE is short it may be tooken away in one blink appreciate it,don't take it for granted and NEVER think your in a position not to lose it. I love live life to the fullest you should do the same. |
Sunday, September 7, 2008
blacc and white
Have you ever thought about how we are in this same world together but are so seperate from eachother. I went to Paul Revere Middle school and Palisades Charter High school. It was a very diverse school mainly Caucasians and Orientals. Going to school with every shade of skin, every nationality was sometimes challenging. Something I will never forget was a discussion in my 12th grade African American History class, We were discussing the topic of Indian's receiving funds and why African Americans weren't receiving anything at all. A uneducated ignorant girl replied, "They need to just get over it slavery is over and its to many of them to give money to anyways"! My mouth dropped and my eyes were left wide open. Well i guess she was entitled to her own opinion. My perception changed about alot. It annoyed me that she was so ignorant and heartless because everyday our people are left struggling to get to the top when some already have a peddle stool below them. On the other hand everything about our school was segregated. It amazed me to think so long ago it was just like how it is now it made me realize didn't to much change. We did an exercise that I had to share we compared and contrast the colors black and white and everything that dealt with those colors. BLACK: Very dark in color, heavy, serious, soiled, absence of light, wicked, very sad, gloomy, characterized by hostility or angry discontent WHITE: Free from color, free from spot and blemish, innocent, favorable, fortunate, marked by upright fairness and pure We are all so different but yet the same. In the great words of Martin Luther King Jr. "Let no man pull you low enough to hate him". No matter what no one says or how a dictionary describes are color we are all equal. |